Elegy for 'Warm'

I cherish every
word you give
me though
you give me not but a few, and
it's not the void,
the sparse, the lacking, the...

   that brings me back and back under
   tornadoed, pinched-off knees
   weak through to plasm tenuous as
   you shyly try to outcheshire the missing-out-
   on-you-world but as a fool's fool I am unfoolable.

I've downloaded
the automatic refresher, and
purchased a yottabyte
hard drive so I might
divine genesis, gestation, birth: the
bell ringing your heart's hand-

   maidens, and at what hour, what
   angle of sunlight, I can see through
   foreboding uncertainty,
   through Beam courage holding
   belief's straggling hand giving

us Heart we
just dug: letting the
cat out of your eyelash,
ringing the mys-
tery out of your skin,
airing into being a stranger I
  
    know, whom
    you carry in maze
    goddesses enw(/t)ombed;
    I pray you know-- to
    gods divined wholly

in spirit, effigy, tribute, idolatry, through
saccharine lonely-fired castles
--that you might meet you, and we
might smile so big our
waxing, saltypink faces break off in-
to eternal combustion engine bread.

But this is myth:

   ROYGBIV to pitch-white;

   Lies under flashlight
   hurt worse than sunbright
   conspiring.

   Losingfull loneliness
   enlarges the heart in-
   to authoritarian delusion.

   Heart
   subsumes every. Heart colors
   Heart into blank. Warm does
   not feel Cold. (Warm is
   gullible)

on smiling (the de- and re-constructive act of honestly taking account of the cheese, the cliche, the tragically trite)

Harsh warm morning light

          

Creaking new house sounds

    Opening patio door

    Looking into vast plat;

The creek trickles softly in détente,

cleanly over stoic bedrock agefull.

i

His cheek's

a bit pocked. Smile peeks 

out behind red lips, 

life reveling 

ribs weary from 

rescusitation

exposed to flaccid 

pummeling broken 

into unevent. But here parting lips

calendar Holiday's arrival.

ii

Smiles are

tributaries rushing through forest,

trenching a new path toward

quenching scorched choking sediment

yearning memory aching to transcend 

sentiment.


iii

Smile 

plats heart's blueprint. Smiles

travel time, rupturing

past; 

Smile canvasses

future, bridges presents.

resting heartbeat (an end until another beginning)

and then all of a sudden
the sun shone brilliantly
upon the unfurled green pistil

and anxious pitterpatter
became ambling pit-pat