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"when i think
that i can't blink
without writing:
nothing happens.

the meaning-stuffed-mind
sits satiated
upon its toilet-throne -
erm, chair
- in consternation
linguistically, neurally, constipated:
where's the _________ fiber?
so that my feelings may pass
so that i may feel the cleanliness and solitude
of an enematic colon.

alas -
more marination needed
more time for the parts of my whole
to write their reports,
talk to witnesses -
or: more time.
just: more time."

"what is the sheer passage of time
but the heroic villain,
the will to ignorance?"


"NO!

we must choose -
whether sedentary, on a paved road or
with a machete in the brush.

And so it is with my salty blue pen and blood-lined paper:

I can't control that
I can't write when
I think I should.
But I can accept it,
Waiting for release,
Enjoying the suffering,
That only precedes meaning."

"... "


"No,
We can."

1 comment:

palbelle said...

steven, i like the allusion you paint of cooking the mind. but if you are going to frame such a great theory- follow up on it. link it between each stanza. stanza means house, and i would take that in the literal sense. although poetry is wording, think of this visually. as words are mainly visual to poets-- white space, experimental play, etc.

perhaps play with the stanza idea/ shape a neighborhood. perhaps your need extra juice from one stanza in order for that meat to cook properly. does that make sense? or too much metaphor there. i mean it. and the quotes. i like not understanding at times. but here, i feel like the author is not even sure and has interspersed several meanings throughout the poem/ different stories, theories, theses. i just think it conflicts.

but i like it. it is a great beginning. the doorway into something grand. keep it up!

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"Seeing that before long I must confront humanity with the most difficult demand ever made of it, it seems indispensable to me to say who I am. Really, one should know it, for I have not left myself "without testimony." But the disproportion between the greatness of my task and the smallness of my contemporaries has found expression in the fact that one has neither heard nor even seen me. I live on my own credit; is it perhaps a mere prejudice that I live? ... I need only to speak with one of the "educated" who come to the Upper Engadine for the summer, and I am convinced that I do not live ... Under these circumstances I have a duty against which my habits, even more the pride of my instincts, revolt at bottom, namely, to say: Hear me! For I am such and such a person. Above all, do not mistake me for someone else!" - Nietzsche, Ecce Homo